No More Watching From The Sidelines!
How long has it been since you consumed? I don’t mean it in a sense of food but rather media. I don’t know about you, but my god I have been for the longest time ever! From videos [ movies | Shows | Internet] to comics, articles, books …etc
And throughout all that time, I built worlds in my head where I too become a creator not just a consumer. In these worlds, it felt great. Made me feel I bring value to this world, not just take from it. However, since that was all in my head, reality keeps striking me. I’m not doing anything. Why don’t I do something? Come on Athoug, do something! But you know what… I never did.
I can blame this on various factors and situations all day long, but if we bottled down to the crux of the reason it’s just me. I am to blame for my inertia. No one else. And this laziness brought with it a bunch of shitty feelings, that not only made me a world-class procrastinator but rather a coward. One who was afraid of trying something. One who was afraid of experimentation, exploring, and living.
It took years to realize this, but I am grateful for the realization. This made me think clearly. Made me excited to try. Made me that 5-year old who would sit on the porch of her backyard with all those broken toys, and parts, and just tries to stitch them together and make something even greater. I miss that girl. But she’s always been there.
This was the reason for writing this post. For working on goals that I will achieve. I’ve never been a fan of new years resolution [still not] This is not one. This is a promise to myself I intend to keep. A message to me.