Yesterday, I watched a documentary on Netflix about the band Wham. I don’t think I knew of them when I decided to watch them. Turns out I actually know a lot of their music. What stood out to me whilst watching this documentary was how George was using music, as a sort of self-expression. He used writing to express his feelings which he kept suppressed and hidden from everyone, but used writing to express it and none was the wiser.
I started noticing it a lot. People use art, in any of its forms, to express themselves. Using it as a creative outlet. I felt envious of those people, until today.
How come? Because I did just that. This past week, I’ve been doing art. Yes, they’re just basic geometry shapes, maybe some feelings are attached to them maybe not, but the simple act of creating gave me this sense. Not sure how to name it, but the feeling is light, a nice kind of feeling, I hope one day those feeling surface and make sense, but that’s not the point of this post.
The point is I made something today. Something that is a sort of self-expression. You see, I cut my hair recently. It wasn’t planned, it just happened. It’s been a month since then, but to this day, I don’t know how I feel about it, and I expressed that with a video.
I don’t know if the video is good or not, but what I do is try. I tried telling a story by writing it, tried organizing shots as a story, and adding music to convey the silliness. This video, regardless of anything, is something I am proud of. Why?
I gave myself a timeframe to publish it today, and I did that. I said it needs to tell a story and it did. I said that this time the colors and proportions would be correct and they were. This is my second video this year (short actually but I think I’ll count it as a video) and it feels nice. Making things again. Without expectations. Without judgment. Only with self-expression.
I wonder what will happen a year from now, continuing to make things on the regular?